On being talked about...

I hate people.

I hate my roommates. I hope they die horribly and their family is killed before their eyes as all the babies in their family are ran over by a truck.

I hate them so much, I hate people.

Now, you are probably wondering why I am saying this.

Because being talked about is never a nice feeling. I think this is why my roommate has her friends over, to annoy me and anger me. It's revenge for turning her in to the RA for the vodka. It's not making me feel bad about what I chose to do, all it's doing is making me start to see a bit of red.

Yes, Kayla is talking shit about me because I said something about the vodka.

Bitch, I'm not leaving this dorm, so you better get the fuck over it. It's not my fault you were stupid enough to put the vodka in the main kitchen freezer instead of in your room. If it was in your room I wouldn't have seen it unless you brought it out, meaning I wouldn't have said anything unless I had seen it. But no, you were being stupid and put it where I could find it.

I know for a fact that most people wouldn't have reported it, but I'm not one of them. I care about whether or not I get in trouble. I care whether or not I get fined for something that was obviously not my doing. And I am not one of those people that will allow that. I don't want it near me and I don't want it in my sight.

I don't play these games like some people.

I officially have to get a car and a license next year because I will commute if I have to. I am not a big fan of dorm living, so if I can get a car, a license, and job to buy the car and gas I'm not living here next year. Maybe I'll feel different next year or whatever, but this is something I definitely wouldn't recommend for my sister unless she had the same dorm as me and it was just the two of us.

There was really nothing good that really happened besides being able to watch Despicable Me and writing two different drafts to the prologue of the dream I had.

But I still want my roommates to die a most painful and horrible death. I hate them so much.

And yes, I'm probably going to hell for these thoughts and desires, this has already been established.

Sooo...

Apparently there has been vodka in the freezer for a while now in my dorm. I know some people would have said nothing, but I'm not one of those people. I said something to an RA friend of mine.

Why?

Because I'm not getting in trouble for someone else's shit, kicked out or fined or whatever. If I get called a snitch, fine. I don't care. If they want to screw up though then be smart enough to have the alcohol in your own personal mini fridge in your own room. If I don't see it then we don't have a problem and the only person at that time that would get in trouble would be themselves, not anyone else.

I'm also still wanting to write that dream I had into a story, but haven't gotten to it yet.

I also still want to draw the characters that were in my dream, but haven't done so yet.

Eventually both these things will happen, the prologue is already in my head and the image of the demon prince in my mind.

Anyways, not much to say.

~Sica

Demons: Dream of 12/11/10

Okay, I know I blog about some random stuff sometimes, but that's what this blog is about. I talk about anything and everything from clean to dirty, from controversial to safe topics. Whatever.

Today's topic, however, is mostly about my dream from last night. I won't go into details about it because I plan on using the dream as a story I want to write and possibly even draw the characters that were in  it. And no, it will not be like Twilight and be all ushy-gushy, it would be supernatural/horror with some other genres thrown in there.

Oddly, the dream dealt with demons. Not the demons I usually think of like Inuyasha or Yu Yu Hakusho where they're all different types of demons, but more like the demons from Hell. The demons were from Hell and there are certain ones with special abilities, or maybe just abilities that everyone had but they took the time to enhance it? Whatever though, it had demons from Hell, which is unusual for me because it's mostly vampires or random dreams that make little sense.

I love dreams like this where they tell a story and I could make a story out of it myself and still remember it. Love it a lot actually. As soon as I woke up I wrote down the details of my dream that I remember and have been thinking about it since.

Writing it.

Drawing the characters.

Many things.

The dream was that awesome, so I'll probably do all those things.

Stories and Writing

Okay, so I've written this story called Love Isn't Black and White. I've also started the sequel about a year ago that I named Time That Passes and Never Stops, but it has yet to be finished. I also have ideas for the side stories of the other characters that are in those stories. I know what I want to write, but have trouble putting anything done for the stories. Even if they get done anyways I know that I have to go back and edit, revise, add additional details that are needed to give it more what it needs to be called a good story. The thought makes my head spin.

However, there is this other story I want to write (well, there are multiple stories I want to write, but that is beside the point). I've had the idea for a while, but have to even organize it for an outline or get anything written down. I have the general jist of it written in a paragraph, but that's only because I didn't want to forget it. The idea came from a dream I had about a year ago about a teenager named Allison. Unlike my previous story Love Isn't Black and White, this is more of a modern fantasy type of thing with some romance while Love Isn't Black and White is more of a romance/drama type.

There's also this supernatural idea I have that I got around the same time period as the modern fantasy idea I have. This idea is more supernatural (or dark fantasy as some may put it) with werewolves, vampires, and organizations. The story would not surround just one person, but three different groups of people: a group of close friends, two brothers, and an empress of a country. This story will have little, and I mean little, romance and that would be between the two brothers. If there are any other couples they are already in a developed relationship. This story will mostly be in the genre of supernatural (dark fantasy)/horror. Something along those lines anyhow.

Those two ideas were a couple dreams I had, that's how I got them in my head. And just because I got them from a dream doesn't mean it will turn out like Ms. Stephenie Meyer's Twilight books. Saying something like that will make me want to club something in the head. For one, I don't have romantic dreams. My dreams are more along the lines of crazy, weird, or violent.

Plus, I've been wanting to write some stories on some characters that I have developed for the pass two or three years, but it's so hard to put them onto paper.

I don't know what I'm going to do yet. I just know I need to write something decent soon because I'm getting annoyed with myself here. It's the same with my drawing, I haven't been able to put anything decent on paper for that too for the pass year or so.

What should I do...?

Advice would be awesome.

R.I.P. Ninja

I think I'll be the only one missing Ninja...

For those who do not know who Ninja is, Ninja was Jeff's pet crayfish and Jeff is Puppy's roommate.

Rest in peace, Ninja.

I will miss you.

Reading and Downloading Manga

Okay.

Lets do this.

Manga. Yup, that's the topic the on mind. For those that love and/or appreciate manga and anime like myself, you know that there are ways to watch and read them on the internet as well as download them. For many, they don't think about buying them because of being able to download them or look at them on the internet.

This does not make the manga-kas happy at all. Essentially, it pisses them off, especially when they get fan letters that admit to that and people say that they are huge fans of the series even though they don't put no money towards buying. If you care about what else is being said in detail, please refer to this link. The best way to understand is to get the details of what is going on.

Now, I understand reading, watching, and downloading anime and manga completely. I do it myself because money is something I have flowing out of my pocket. The difference, however, between me and the people that download or whatever is that I have every intention of buying what I get when I get the money. I hate reading manga online or downloading it onto the computer or whatever. It takes up space and/or you have to have internet access to get to it. Plus, it is not the same as actually having it in my hands and being able to to turn those beautifully illustrated pages. I HATE reading it online or on the computer.

The same goes for anime. I HATE watching it online or downloading it because it takes up space on the computer and I have to have internet access to watch it if it's online over and over again. The process is a pain no matter how you look at it. Watching the anime on the computer is not the same as watching it on a big screen TV and being able to say you own the lovely DVD of the anime that you fell in love with. It's just not the same at all!

Most of the time when I read manga online it's because I read the first volume that I own and I didn't have the money to buy the others and I want to know what happens. So I read it online to know what happens. Though, as I've said already, it is not the same as holding it in my hand to read it. If i don't like the first chapter that I read of manga that I have never touched before then I know not to buy it.

Even though it is the time when computers are more popular than handwritten or hand drawn works, I still prefer to have the feel of the book or DVD in my hands. Personally, I hate computers. The only thing they are useful for for me is to do the few things I need to do on the net. I would prefer to have the typewriter back personally. Call me old fashioned, I don't care. Technology is getting far too complicated and ridiculous anymore. That's just how I feel about it.

Sure, what I'm doing people would think I'm no better and I won't deny that. However, as soon as I have the money I plan on buying the manga that I have read or downloaded when I get the money, then once I do that everything that has been downloaded will be deleted because I would have no need for it. And you know what? I look forward to that day because then I would feel better towards the hardworking manga-kas that I adore the works of.

I understand why people are doing it.

I also understand why manga-kas are pissed about it.

My only request is that even if you download or read it online is to PLEASE BUY THE WORK THAT YOU READ ONLINE OR DOWNLOAD AND THEN DELETE WHAT YOU DOWNLOAD! I want the industry to keep going, that's why I'm asking this of you. If you don't want to spend the money to get the anime or manga then, to me, you are not that much of a fan.

WTF? Really, People?

Okay, I have been checking fanfictions and stories on the sites I'm (mibba, fanfiction.net, fictionpress) and come to find out no one has even read my stuff whatsoever. No matter how hard I try no one seems to want to read it. Shoot, some of my friends seem about as interested in them as they are about rocks (which is literally none at all).

Why is it that I can't find a few people to read my stuff and give me feedback? Is my writing really that atrocious? Are my ideas for stories that uninteresting? It kind of just lowers my self-esteem in my abilities, or, apparently, lack thereof...Should I even bother sharing any of my work at all?

Not only is that getting on my nerves, but my roommates seem to think that they are allowed to use my supplies without even asking for permission. I could understand if they didn't have the items themselves, but everyone has their own crap! I know I may be sounding like a, oh, I don't know, a BITCH, but I like to know if my stuff is being used. I have never said once that they can use anything of mine, not once.

Yes, I'm being territorial, hence why most of my stuff is in my room and the rest will be coming in here when I get my room situated to where I can store things in proper places.

Am I being a little over the top? Yes, yes, I am. I know this already.

Should I be acting this way? No. I know this as well.

Would we have this problem if my roommates actually spoke to me and we all sat down to discuss who gets what cabinet to shelf or whatever? No, but I don't see that changing anytime soon.

Yes, I'm being a BITCH, but I'm a very TERRITORIAL person.

That's my rant of the day.

Have a nice day.

Roommates

It's been a while. I've been somewhat busy in life and have been stressing out again.

Nothing new.

Anyways, if anyone decides to live in the dorms of whatever college they choose, make sure you prepare yourself the best you can for dealing with new people as your roommates. It is a difficult task. For those who don't, I am living on campus of the college of my choice and I have three roommates that I live with, making that four girls in one dorm. Granted, we have our own rooms with locks and keys, but it is still, excuse my language, hard as hell to deal with them.

They're all nice, don't get me wrong, but some of the things they do just get on my nerves. If you know me, then you know that I have many pet peeves that if they are done I get ticked off pretty badly.

One of them happens to be leaving the lights and electronics on in a room when you're obviously not in there or using them. That is a waste of electricity. Sure, the electricity is free, but it's just so annoying to me. My roommates, not saying which ones, have a habit of doing this and I end turning them all off before I go to bed.

Another pet peeve of mine not leaving any room in the refrigerator and freezer for anybody else. One of my roommates has her own little mini refrigerator with a freezer in her room, but I have reason to believe that she barely uses the darn thing. Now, I'm probably going to have to buy one of my just so I could have all my crap not get meshed with everyone else's. I'm really starting to get ticked off about that.

One other one is that one of my roommates have a habit having people over all the time, which doesn't bother me because I would love to have people over, but what does is the fact I have reason to believe that she has the opposite sex stay the night at times. That is obviously against the rules, at least here. I think it's a stupid rule myself because most of my friends are almost all dudes, but I don't go around doing that. If I find out that she's having sex with them that's when I'll be turning her in, but until then I'm on the watch.

Can you tell I'm a little frustrated?

On a good note though, Miyavi will be releasing his album "WHAT'S MY NAME?" on October 13th of this year. If you pre-order or want the LIMITED EDITION then it will cost approximately $75.53 in U.S. currency. Here's a link of where you could order it. There are other sites, you don't have to use this one if you don't want to.

Anyhow, I guess that's all for now.

Until next time.

The Way to Your Heart

This is a web-manga by Emily Muto. The synopsis below is property of Emily Muto:

This is a shoujo style, visual kei inspired story about a girl prodigy named Yumi who transfers to a new school and literally bumps into the lives of a rising J-rock band named Orochi. As the musicians and the genius are suddenly thrust into the same world, emotions run wild in a torrent of teenage angst and passion.


I have read it from the beginning to the updated piece that is up today. All in one day. I couldn't stop reading it, so that's pretty much all I did. I find this manga to be wonderful, especially when it has the music form of visual kei along with the shojo aspects. This is a combination that, to me, is rarely seen in manga and something that I find that I enjoy.


As for characters that are my favorites, I automatically fell in love with Toshio at first sight. There was just something about him that I loved and I found out it wasn't because he was just cool, but also a sweetheart. He is another one of my unofficial husbands...You'd understand if you read it...He's the main one I love at the moment, but they're all great characters and you love them all.


Plus, the fanboy, Eizo I believe his name is, is just hilarious...even though he is kind of a creeper at times...I love it!


Now, one character I have to speak of is Miyabi. At first I didn't like him because he was such a jerk that I just wanted to kill him, but as I read on I grew to understand him and like him. He seemed to mellow out throughout the manga and his temper didn't seem to flare in every panel like it seemed to do before. I have begun to understand him little by little...He still has his moments of jerkness, but the reasoning behind everything now makes sense. I'm curious to see what happens to him as time goes by...


For anybody that may be interested, here's the link to the manga: http://emi-art.com/twtyh/index.html and if you want to check out her other works here's her main site: http://emi-art.com/.

I highly recommend this manga to everyone.

Introduction

This will be a blog about anything and everything that comes to my mind. Some of the topics I'll have will probably have a high chance of being controversial and/or unconventional. Some of my posts will be irrelevant. Some posts will be "normal", whatever that is... Most likely though, people will not even look at this, but that's fine. It is more of a thing for me to put down my thoughts and maybe someone, someday, will come upon this and actually care about what I have to say. Doubtful, but you never know, right?

Well, regardless of how this works out this is here we'll just go with the flow.