Oh Summer...

Hello, Blog. What's up?

Summer has started, but I have been unsuccessful in obtaining a job (as usual). It's getting real discouraging so I'm starting to slow down the search. Mom's getting on my case a little bit about it because she thinks I'm not trying hard enough. I won't argue with that. From the outsider's eye it does look like that, however, for someone who doesn't like rejection and talking with people it's not bad.

A friend of mine (who I will call Chibi) has been the staying the night for almost a week. She's got problems going on. Apparently, she may be pregnant. I won't give details about it, but it is a messier situation than it already sounds like.

Now Hexx, she's got things going on too! One of her parents are ill and trying to fight it off before things get worse. She's not handling it well. She's crying a lot and when she's talking about her problems she's unintentionally putting stress on me as well. And it's not helping me at all, especially since I have a little bit of bitterness and anger towards her. She doesn't know it, but I do. She's so sensitive that I don't want to say anything because it could break the friendship we've had for years.

That bitterness and anger I'm referring to is of not getting paid back. Back in the summer of last year we went to a concert and she was supposed to pay for half of the stay at the hostel. It was $70 and she said she'd pay me back because she didn't have the money to pay her half. Thinking she would I agreed to it, she said she'd do it and she's reliable and I've known her for a long time and I trust her to keep to her word.

Bad idea. It's been a year and I have yet to see the $35 she owes me. She's gotten paid by her campus job, so she had gotten checks. She could've paid me back, but spent it on other things (mostly things she wanted like a $30-$40 on a CD (shipping included) she bought online from Japan). When she was forced to transfer to my college for the semester because of grades she received a fair amount from her refund check, more than enough to pay me back. Did she? No, she said "she didn't have the money" when she had over $700, but she had enough money to buy a DVD from Japan that costed $100 (shipping included).

What the hell? That's some bullshit right there. I took her word for paying me back and I pretty much get slapped in the face. And you want to know the kicker? That concert and the stay was supposed to be covered by her because it was a GRADUATION PRESENT! Bullshit I say.

Oh! And now That artist we saw last year may be coming back to Chicago and she wants to go. I thought "maybe she'll pay me back at last!" Nope. She said herself that she's not paying me back, not with money like we agreed but she says she'll pay for the hostel/hotel stay. NO! NONONO!!! I DID NOT AGREE TO THAT!!! She just practically said that I'm not getting my money back, but she thinks it's okay because she's paying our stay this time and she just laughed it off. I'm sorry, but that money she owes me is a lot. It's not just $3, it's $35.

As much as I don't want to make her mad (because I hate having friends be mad at me) I'm going to have set my foot down on this one. I just can't have her walking over me like this anymore and I can't be submissive with her anymore. She's not trying to walk over me, I know it's unintentional, but she's doing it and I'm becoming bitter with her.

Anyways, onto some more decent news.

I've began drawing again and I'm thinking about making a comic of Prordville (made of Prords). Yeah, I know. What the hell are Prords? That...I will not tell you! However, I have made some new characters and developed more of the ones that were neglected. Some I ended up falling in love with. Some characters have gotten revamped. Some of those characters will be DA, just like the comic will most likely be if I'm comfortable with that.

Sadly though, I haven't been able to write, only draw. And I have this great adventure story idea in my head. How sad...

I haven't been playing much of ToA either because of my carpal tunnel, but I'm 30 hours into it and one-third of the way through the game. YAY! I also got Devil May Cry recently and a new copy of Final Fantasy X since that was too scratched up to do anything. DMC is okay, I guess. I think the only reason I think that is because I'm not used to those types of games and I'm more into RPGs.

By the way, I'm deciding whether to buy a PS3 first or a SNES. What do you think? I already have one I'm leaning towards though...

Before I let you go because of time I have left at the library here's a phrase I cam e up with while thinking of one of my characters and their lover:

"Whether we fly or walk through the flames, at least I'll be holding your hand." - myself/OC (original character) Brian

~Sica